Confessions

So those who know me, realise that I have to shed the excess fat that i have been harbouring for 18 years. its not like I haven't tried, I did but every time i tried i lost a few pounds and then relapse back to my old habits. Self control isn't my strongest points, i would sneak and cheat during my diets. hell that's the truth....Its not easy losing weight but hell its so simple to put it on..so in form 5 I weighed the heaviest i have ever been, so right after my exams my mom had this intervention thing where she told me I looked like a horrible and that my health wasn't too good either. So I decided it was time for a change!!!

I went to see my doctor and he put me on pills and then I started losing weight but that was also with a lot of exercise and diet..But those pills made me lethargic all the time, I decided to stop the pills. I was still losing weight but very slowly and painfully because with the pills I knew I could eat and I won't put on the extra pounds..Now I could not eat what I wanted, then I started slipping back into my horrid world of eating again and it got worse after college started..I begin lying to my mom about my diets because i didn't want to let her down but still i couldn't let temptation go...My mom knew I was cheating because she could see the changes, so this time she came on real hard and said if you dint do this I'm never going to help you again and that was hard to bear because my mom was always there for me. How could I ever betray her!!!!
This time I'm trying again, and believe me I'm trying harder but its not easy especially for me.

This is why I'm starting fat files so that i can truly be honest and if some else reads it and its able to help them then I'm glad because losing weight when u have always been big isn't easy...

Have fun eating(I know i do*hehe*)